I wasn't going to post for Cody's birthday this year.....but then I noticed I did for Dakota's.....soooo....I am re-posting last years post and just changed the age to 16. Maybe one day I will no longer feel the need to post for his birthday, but I still miss my boy beyond belief, so please indulge me. After all, if it weren't for Cody, this blog would never have existed and I never would have had the joy of knowing all of YOU! xoxo
I see this face and the hurt begins all over again. My precious Cody today would have been your 16th birthday, three years ago I never would have ever imagined that you wouldn't be with us today. One day you were here, and like a blink of an eye you were gone. It's all a blur. A heartbreaking blur.
I miss you EVERY SINGLE DAY. I miss you sitting next to me on the armrest of the couch. I miss looking into your sea green eyes, I miss your quirky little mouth. I miss your cuddle bug ways. I miss yelling at you for trying to chew everything you could get your paws on. I miss sharing chicken with you. I miss your calm and easy-going nature.
From the day I adopted you in 2007 we shared an incredible bond. You crawled up my chest that day and you would NOT let go. The tears come all over again when I think about the day you left us. I beat myself up mentally constantly for feeling as if I let you down. That I didn't protect you enough, when I had promised you I would. Even now, nearly three years after you passed, I STILL cannot type without tears welling in my eyes.
I love you and miss you my "Codester", my "Jelly Belly", my "Codalicious", my "Cody Boy", my "Cuddlebug". I pray with all of my heart that you knew how deeply you were loved. I hope Angel Dakota is helping you celebrate your heavenly birthday my precious boy. My life will never, ever be the same without you here. I miss you more than you could ever imagine Cody.